The Answer is Yes
If there's anything I've learned over the last several years has been that when your fears, nightmares and scary things come true, God is still true, He's still good and He still loves. This time around is no different - another fear coming to life- another opportunity to revert to who I was before, or walk away in the freedom that God gave me along the way.
Really, I shouldn't be surprised, seeing as I studied and taught on the life of Joseph just two weeks ago, telling our girls that "God has a plan for your life that is incredible." Even when bad stuff happens, God still has a plan for you. If I've learned nothing as someone who has the unique and treasured privilege to teach God's word, He always walks us through what it is we teach.
Joseph's story has always resonated with me, but more in the last decade of broken dreams, disappointments, rejections and heart-crushing paths. But through it all, I walked away this year saying "God, I trust you to have a better plan than all the broken junk." And that's what I taught these girls. And so now I have a chance to live it....again.
Tonight at Thirsty (a Friday night worship service/communion service), I started the night in tears. I told God I was here to worship Him in this - even though it was crappy. I told Him I was here to say He's still good, still all that He says that He is and that I still believe Him. And for a bit, I got a little angry and asked why I'm in this same spot again. But then Todd said something that just made me realize that this isn't about me. I don't matter, what I want doesn't matter, what matters is how God can change me and use this broken road I'm crawling along, if I'll only say yes and surrender to His bigger plan.
So I say Yes.
If I have to be crushed, Yes.
If I have to hurt, Yes.
If I have to walk away, Yes.
If I have to lose things and people I love, Yes.
If I have to give up dreams, Yes.
If I have to live this path again and again, Yes.
If those things lead one heart into a deeper relationship with Christ - With all my heart, with everything in me, through the tears, and hurt - YES! YES! YES!
Letting things go is hard.
Saying Yes to God is harder.
But it's worth it in the end.
If I know nothing, NOTHING at all,
I know & trust that God is good.
I know that He has a plan.
And I want to reach the end of this journey with this perspective and conviction about his Enemy, just like Joseph:
"As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today" ~ Genesis 50:20
God, tonight, tomorrow and everyday...
YES.
Yes.
Really, I shouldn't be surprised, seeing as I studied and taught on the life of Joseph just two weeks ago, telling our girls that "God has a plan for your life that is incredible." Even when bad stuff happens, God still has a plan for you. If I've learned nothing as someone who has the unique and treasured privilege to teach God's word, He always walks us through what it is we teach.
Joseph's story has always resonated with me, but more in the last decade of broken dreams, disappointments, rejections and heart-crushing paths. But through it all, I walked away this year saying "God, I trust you to have a better plan than all the broken junk." And that's what I taught these girls. And so now I have a chance to live it....again.
Tonight at Thirsty (a Friday night worship service/communion service), I started the night in tears. I told God I was here to worship Him in this - even though it was crappy. I told Him I was here to say He's still good, still all that He says that He is and that I still believe Him. And for a bit, I got a little angry and asked why I'm in this same spot again. But then Todd said something that just made me realize that this isn't about me. I don't matter, what I want doesn't matter, what matters is how God can change me and use this broken road I'm crawling along, if I'll only say yes and surrender to His bigger plan.
So I say Yes.
If I have to be crushed, Yes.
If I have to hurt, Yes.
If I have to walk away, Yes.
If I have to lose things and people I love, Yes.
If I have to give up dreams, Yes.
If I have to live this path again and again, Yes.
If those things lead one heart into a deeper relationship with Christ - With all my heart, with everything in me, through the tears, and hurt - YES! YES! YES!
Letting things go is hard.
Saying Yes to God is harder.
But it's worth it in the end.
If I know nothing, NOTHING at all,
I know & trust that God is good.
I know that He has a plan.
And I want to reach the end of this journey with this perspective and conviction about his Enemy, just like Joseph:
"As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today" ~ Genesis 50:20
God, tonight, tomorrow and everyday...
YES.
Yes.
I'm praying with you friend, that as you say yes God grants you the desires of your heart
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