Thursday, June 7, 2012

Inside My Head

* I've discovered that I wrestle with God far more than I rest in Him. Truth is, it'd be far better if I did the opposite.Not earth shattering, really, but truth.

* Lies about myself are so much easier to believe. Why is that?

* There were a few days when the lies and the constant assault on my mind was quieted. That was lovely.

* My faith is the weakest of faiths. Determining to believe takes gargantuan effort, of which there seems to be little left.

* "You don't believe you're worth fighting for, do you?" -- well now, that cut right to the heart of me...but no, I don't.

*There is no proof, no miracle amazing enough to make you believe because we will forget it, just like the Israelites forgot about the Red Sea parting and the rescue from slavery. So we simply have to choose to believe.

*Seasons of rest are good. Sabbath rest is not just commanded, it's part of God's covenant command to us.

*"You are Still Holy" by Klaus & Kari Jobe is ringing in my ears today. Yesterday it was "Find You on My Knees" by Kari Jobe. Pretty accurate sum ups.

*Sometimes I need to give up on having an answer and just shut my brain up for about ten seconds so God can speak.

* Contemplating what it means to be God's "Mine" - Isaiah 43:1-4

1 But now, this is what the Lord says—
    he who created you, Jacob,
    he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;    I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
    I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
    they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
    you will not be burned;
    the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
    Cush and Seba in your stead.
Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
    and because I love you,

I will give people in exchange for you,
    nations in exchange for your life.

* And He got up and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Hush, be still.” And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm. {Mark 4:39}


*Hushing. 



1 comment:

  1. I makes me sad you don't believe you are worth fighting for - and mad people made you feel that way. Yes, there are people who won't/don't fight for you - but their failure to see your worth is not indicative of your worth. It only shows their failure and blindness. I agree with you though - lies are so much easier to believe then the truth. I think because the lies are reinforced by how we see - being that we see through murky eyes. When we see clearly, we shall see the lies for what they are, and the truth shall be bright as noon sun. I think that is what Paul meant in that portion of I Cor. 13.

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