My name means "beloved" or "lovable" ....and it never fails to amaze me when people around me state that this in inherently true of me. I don't feel lovable or worthy of love....but I know I am Beloved by many....and I'm thankful for that.
After talking to my Mum a bit about some of the things I wrote about yesterday...she told me, "You're going to be ok, because deep down you don't want those things to be true in your heart. You will stay soft because that's what you really want." That made it so much easier to believe that the things I feel rising are only just passing emotion.
My heart desires to be lovable. I want to be worthy of the name given me. And the Love given to me regardless.